Monday, June 30, 2008

Just living life

There is so many places and things to see in this world that I might run out of time before I see and visit all of them. I wanna go to Jamaica, Bahamas and many countries in Africa. Hopfully I will be able to do that. Let's get to the point though. Traveling is one of the collest things people can do. Just to see different coultures, the beauty of nature and you gain lots of memories that you're gonna remember till the rest of your life. Sometimes it really doesn't take too much effort. You just need to pay attention to the beauty of creation that surround you. Usually we just don't have time to even notice it. That's gotta change. Bobby Valentino: Tell Me.

One of the other ideas I'm thinking about is a road trip across the United States. That would be so awesome. I wouldn't go alone of course but with a good friend or two. It takes a lots of planning but it all starts with an idea. All you need to do is just make it happen. I know some of my friends has done it before. But they're just old and all of them are married. That's why i relized that the best time for somehing like a road trip is when you're still between 20-28 years old. It would all need to be planed a year before though.

So don't be surprised if one day I'll write here about a road trip to one of these places. The bottom line is don't tell yourself: Yea maybe I'll do it someday. If there is a place you really wanna go and it was always one of your dreams I encourage you to do it. It's all about planning, setting your priorities and managing your time. That's where you need to start. Saving your money for the trip is another thing but it's not like there ain't no jobs out there. Especially during the summer time. So just think about it and let's see what you're gonna come up with.

Sunday, June 29, 2008

On your own

You know what time it is. Let's start with Road to Perdition: Theme. I've always wanted to be on my own. I mean there comes a time in everyone's life where you just gotta step up and be the man. First thing you do is moving out of your parents house. Second thing you do is you just live your life. Third thing well you're broke but happy as hell. There also comes a time in everyone's life where you realize who your friends are and who your friends no longer are. And that's how you find roomates and with some of them you're gonna be friends for the rest of your life.

Then there is a question. Am I gonna go to college or am I taking a year off which usually becomes longer than 12 months. Well going to college might be the best adventure in your entire life. And for most of the people I know it was. When it comes to paying for college there are plenty of ways to figure it out. I'm not gonna disscus that but let me tell you something: reaserch is the key. That's what I've learned so far. The problem here is that we are so damn lazy and of course too busy for that. So I just wanna encourage you to do the first step which I basically mentioned above.

Now, gtting to the point what I really couldn't stand at my parents house was that they would always tell me what to do. And yours probably did that too. They wanna know everything, they wanna control and be involved in your life as much as possible. No doubt that they have good intentions. But there comes a time when you finally understand who you really are and what you really wanna do with your life. And when that happenes your ready to start living on your own.

Saturday, June 28, 2008

My quiet time

I am the kind of person that needs a quiet time. I can go early in the morning or late evning to some basketball court and shoot hoops for hours. I can ride my bike for a long time around my neighborgood listening to music. There are plenty of ways to be left alone, just you with your thoughts. Sometimes i find myself thinking about friends form my childhood that i lost touch with or some random people that I've met once and havent't seen them since. I was able to find a couple of them through facebook. Okey time for some music: Pac: Komradz.

Some of people that I've known for a long time are already married. All of them are girls though. One is pregnet another has a child. You know some people will never learn but you know what you make your choice and you're the one that has to be responsible for it There is no way around it. If you don't wanna fuck up you're life you have to be responsible for the choices you make. I'm not here to judge because it's really not my role, and not my problem. I just wanna say, be smart about what you doing with your life and think three times before you do something stupid.

Do you think that life is all about making choices? Then you're damn right. Nobody is perfect and we all make mistakes. But I'm telling you some people wouldn't learn on their mistakes even after a 100 time... Well If you really wanna screw up your life, then go ahead but I am not going with you. I'm so tired of that bullshit talk like everybody does this and that, and I had to do it. People say that wisdom comes with age. It does but with some irresponsible decisions that you happened to make in your youth you're gonna have to live for the rest of your life. And there is no going back.

Friday, June 27, 2008

8th of July

I was born on July 8th 1987. Damn, it bacically means that I'm gonna be 21 in few days. Live goes by so fast, i can tell you that. So i'm sitting in front of my pc, listenng to Pac: Krazy . Ain't nothinng like a good solid bit. And i'm thinking here, the last two years of my life were most definitely the best. You know how it is when you're waiting for something for so long, making your plans and priorities. Imagine waiting years for some of your sweetest dreams. And then, that feeling of freedom and joy when it comes true.

I've always known that if you work hard and belive in yourself you can accomplish great things. And it really is that simple. The road to your goal isn't that easy, but the most important thing is that you can't give up. Last year I was on the train to Philly. In front of me there was a black guy with three little daughters. They were so precious and beautifull that I couldn't stop lokking at them, smiling at the same time. I'll never forget that. For one thing it really made my day. But what is more important it's one of those things that it's hard to forget.

It took my a while to figure it out, but family comes first, man. I personally belive that marriage is one of the greatest blessings God has given us. I know I'm just 21 but it really got me thinking lately. You're gonna spend the rest of your life with the person that you love so much you could do anything for her. And with that right there come all kind of responsibilities. Is something you learn your whole life. It takes little steps through pain and disappointment which finally leads to the point when you are proud of yourself and you get stuck with memories that shape your character for the rest of your life. And it's worth it.

Thursday, June 26, 2008

26th of June

It's my mom's birthday. Also this year my mom and dad are celebrating 25 years of beaing married. I know I'm lucky. Not everyone had a chance to be raised by both parents. I know what I'm talking about. I'm sitting in front of my pc listening to Pac: Dear Mama. So I decided to do something special for them. When I look back and realize how much they've done for me, there is only one thing that comes to my mind: Thank You Mom and Dad.

Here is a couple of words thet express how i feel: You were always there for me, and you never let me down. Even though I've often given you a hard time deep in my heart I've always known that you love me. You have showed me the way to live by being such a great example. I want you to know that I really appericiate how you raised me. Because of You I am who I am and it's never going to change. I Love You Mom And Dad. Your Son J.J.

We've been through some good times and some shitty times. But we've survived. My life was in serious danger at least three times. But for some reason God kept me alive. There is also so many good memories from my childhood. It's all because my parents did everything they could to make sure that I have had a great example in them. And now I know that decisions I've been making recently are gonna have deep inpact for the rest of my life. And they are based on what i've experienced before.